I watched you
From the unbearable corners of my life
Unskilled
Inexperienced
I loved you
Like a stupid teenager
Blinded by the idea of perfect future
I wrapped you in my arms
Every night
Like you were the last soul
I would see before my imminent death
I carved your name on everything
Believing foolishly
Whatever I possess is all yours
I painted your smile everywhere
On every piece of paper I had
I shaved, combed, dressed myself
Looking at you in the mirror
Everything I did
Everything I chose
Was perfect to the extent of your subtle approval
But you couldn't deliver yourself to me
You weren't even yours to give
They took you from me
They sent you away like a bad omen
And left me alone
Like an old ruined mosque
Where no one calls the azaan
And none offers any prayer
I am that dreadful nightmare
No one wants to dream now
The forgotten melody to unsung songs
I am just the opposite of what is