Saturday, 27 August 2011

Metamorphosis


How do I make sense of world
When you are not around
Everything is strange
Nothing works in its proper way
Morning doesn’t come on time
Night falls asleep
Breathing becomes endless
Dreams become rare
Life becomes a foolish habit
Living become a bad joke
Sitting, standing and all overt gestures
All become mundane
When I speak to the world
Words become banal
Truth becomes a fiction
Fiction becomes a prosaic art
Love become a passion
Need becomes its face
Hope, its guardian
Destiny endless wait
In your absence, my love
Nothing remains same
I become a stranger
To my own name

I find myself all alone


I find myself all alone
In your sweet reminiscences
I keep looking at my empty room
Devoid of all the pictures
Of nature and people
That could have been there
Had you chose them
For my forlorn walls
Then I look at my furniture
Which is so uninteresting
Devoid of any marks of wearing
That would have been there
Had you sit on them so long
Then I look at my whimpering mobile
It used to whine again and again
Like my heart beat
My heart has not been beating
From so many ages now
The only thing I am left with
Is my failing past
Which is like an old temple or a mosque
Deserted in the middle of dense jungle
I visit it quite often
To find my God there!

I’m the jargon of my own existence


I’m the jargon of my own existence
An idea of God
Forged by my mother
Coined by my father
Nurtured by my people
Sculpted by the time I live in
I am just an idea!
I will be soon forgotten
To a grave
Whose rough face will read
“Here lies an idea
Which cannot be reclaimed
Unless you fall in love.”

“I am You!”


When I am in love
I am more than what I am
I am raised
Revived
Resurrected
Sanctified
To become the locus
Of all what is divine
I become the universe that consumes us
In ever-exchanging days and nights
But then when I think of you, love
Oh! When I think of you
I am reduced to my finitude
Torn apart
Into billion pieces
Till I become a dot
In an ever-blinking eye of the universe
And when I am at brink of nothingness
The only saving grace
Is when I say
  “I am You!”

“All the stones bleed of old memories.”


Walking down one deserted street
Of my childhood hometown
Which, I remember, was made of joy once
Where I had spent my innocent years
Of untold mischievousness.
I felt like lying down on the ground
Only to feel how it feels to be alive again
I felt the heart beat
of the barren earth beneath me
beating like a dying man
slow but stubborn
I touched its soily skin
And caressed it all along
Suddendly, it cried with pain
There were scars all over
Scars of undeserving time
And regretful past
I tried to console it
Caressed it with my tears of concern
But it kept on sobbing like a child
And when I asked it of pain
I was answered by few stray stones
Lying all over it chest
One stone told me
Of losing its lovely home
In the backyard of the house
Which is there no more
Another told me of its joy of years
Lying at the bottom of an ancient stream
Being cleansed again and again
By faithful rains and trustworthy snows
Another stones still recovering from its pain
Of loss and dejection
Told me of the love
It used to get at the footsteps of a sacred shrine
Which was burnt
And rebuilt with foreign stones
Another one told me of anger
Of being held in young hands of hatred
And thrown with vengeance
Only to hurt its own heart
I couldn’t hear them all
For a while I stood there
Like one of them
And then when I was about to leave
A small lost stone in its soft stony voice
Cried and asked me of home
Which it couldn’t find anymore
Without consoling them any
I turned homeward
Which I wasn’t sure
Have those same familiar friendly stones around
I walked in silent soreness
An old stone lying on one bleeding sidewalk
Reminded me of my childhood
And asked me if I could recognize it
While I held it in my trembling fingers
And looked at its dusty black shine
I couldn’t hold my tears back
It was the same stone
Which I had preserved so many years
like a precious hard earned treasure
In my childhood years
And kept it safe
In the old ragged pocket
Of my grandmother’s phirin.