Awakening

I have been away

Not present at all

Removed from my body

Removed from my own sight

I wasn’t there when you first kissed me

Or hugged me

In that cold night when I was crying

I wasn’t there…

I wasn’t there when I fell off the branch

Of life, sad and whiny

You carried me on your shoulders

Of love and care

Tugged me in my bed

Of awakening

With your kiss of pure delight

I wasn’t there

When Sun was teasing me

Like a morning doll

You stood there

Blocking it to my comfort

But

 I was there

When you went away

I know I was there

Because I felt the pain

Somewhere inside myself

I felt a big hole

As if life wasn’t reaching

To some part of my soul

Taking me all in

Sinking me into itself

I know I was there

And now my love

I am still here

When you are gone

Not here anymore

Since ages

I have been present in my own absence since then.