Patience of Love

Patience

Is not always the best

You know of my love

I have waited for you

So long

Like the reflection

On the other side of the mirror

Who will break the mirror of this never-ending distance?

The World Without A Map

You have oceans in your eyes

Sun, moon and all the stars

Are just vague metaphors

Of your face

You hide summer in your arms

Winter in your tears

Autumn in your skin

And spring in your smile

You can build a city on your hips

Buildings, homes, roads

And undiscovered markets

Can never map the vastness of your curves

I get lost in your world

But then I know I won’t

I have a home

Deep in the valley of mountains

My temple of mysterious pounding grounds

Every morning I pray there

And sometimes I climb those holy mountains

Sit quietly on the top

Facing the soft winds

From friendly north

And believe 

God is nearby watching over me

Meri Gudiya Mere Khwaab (Kashmiri bachon ke naam)

Pyaari Wafa se maine aek din 

Ye poocha anjaney mai

"Sapne jo aatey hain tumko

Sapney mai kaun aata hai?"

Chotey chotey honton ko

Sharm ki hansi se bigoi thi

"Mai batao mere kwaab mai har din

Meri gudiya aati hai

Uskey aek baazo nahi hai

Kapde phaty phatai se hain

Chehrey pe gard padi hai

Pao pe kafi chaaley hai"

"Mai usko galey lagaon

Kitni baar ye karti hun

Kwaab mai usko apne kareeb

Aur kareeb mai laati hun

Par wo mujhse bolti nahi
Kyon wo mujhse bolti nahi hai?

Kitni batain mai karti hun"

"Jabse humara ghar jala hai

Uski judai mai mai jalti hun

Meri gudiya kwaab mai aakhir

Kabhi to mujhse boley gi

Yahi umeed lakey mai

Din raat ko sooti rehti hun"

"Pyaare Abba tum pyaarey ho

Mera itna kaam karo

Meri gudiya janey kahan hai

Kahin se usko dhoondh ke lao

Dikhney mai wo pyaari hai

Par uskey aek baazo nahi hai

Kapde phaty phatai se hain

Chehrey pe gard padi hai

Pao pe kafi chaaley hai"

"Jahan kahi se dhoondh ke usko

Naye ghar ka pata de do

Wo meri tarah ziddi haina

Pyaar se usko ghar bulana

Gar wo aana na chahe to

Usko mere khwaab sunana

Bus usko mere kwaab sunana"

In Conversation With My Past

“Do you remember that day…?”

Is the way he comes back to me always

I try hard to keep him away

“Why are so obstinate?

We fight for hours

Over the memories I remember differently

Or at least want to remember differently

But then again

He comes back again with his maddening

“Do you remember that day?”

Then out of frustration

I finally turn to him and say

“Yes I remember everything”

“I was there every time”

“But I am not that person anymore"

"I am the person

Killed in the past

Living in the future

Breathing in present.”

“You dare not believe you have me all”

Unsaid Words!

Its better that some things are left unsaid

I

Am…

You

Are…

And

We…

Paranoia

There is a man spying on me

I see him all the time

In the mirrors of my life

I see him watching me in the morning

When I wake up to the splendors of the day

I see him scout me

When I sing to the empty walls of my home

And when I am happy thinking about you

He doesn’t leave me alone any time

He is everywhere

He even disguises himself like me

Wearing the same cloths I wear

The same smile I put on

Even the same perfume I wear

I try hard to lose him on the streets

But he follows me across all shops

Around all roads splashed with morning showers

I even see him sometimes

Sitting beside me

I turn around but he is gone

He even knows the secret evening places I go to

He comes to the garden where I meet you always

I see him hiding down in the waters of the pond

Watching me surreptitiously like a tiger

From the perennial grass of time

What is he looking for?

I have nothing to give him

Sometime I think I will bribe him

With my unsent letters

And plead him to watch you all the time

But then I think

Without you and without him

I will be all alone and unspied

I was happy about one fact though

He doesn’t know the way to my dreams

He can’t spy me there

When I meet you

On the banks of Dal Lake every night

Watching moonlight playing

With her slivery brushes

On the quivery canvas

But last night

I had a nightmare

We were together

When universe was losing its nightly gown

And draping its bright new dress

I looked at you as I always do

And I saw him in your eyes

Now I don’t know what to think

Tell me love,

Disguised as me

Is it you spying on me all the time?

Mai Zindagi Ki Shuruaat To Karun!

Tumne choo kar

Zindagi

Mere haathon pe rakh di thi

Wo Zindagi mai ab tak

Apny wajood ki

Banjar zameen pe

Boya nahi hun

Saanson ki fasl abi ugi nahi hai

Tum aaajao

Apni alhad hansi ki eedi se

Hayat ka koi aabshaar baha do

Koi maojza kar do

Mere wajood ko

Zinda kar do

Mai zindagi ki koi shuruaat to karun