Breakfast With My Schizophrenia

That voice is growing on me

Who is he calling to?

I had put sugar in my tea

Why does it taste salty?

Your face is too familiar

Have you come to steal my dreams?

But you can’t

Even if I tell you

They are hidden inside my secret locker

It only opens with one key

The key of my sleep

But you can’t make me sleep

Go away!

What do you want from me?

Give me your black sweater

I have to build a house

Of black strings

For my homeless friend

Who can’t stop talking any time

Follows me everywhere

No, you don’t know him

He hasn't met you yet

How can you meet him!

He is homeless!

Go away!

Why do you want to meet him?

My tea is getting cold

I must drink it fast

Before it gets dry

There is a message at the bottom

Look it is your eye

Close your eyes

They are too beautiful and sharp

They hurt me

They cut through me

I don’t want to bleed my thoughts out

Go away!

Why do you want to know me?

There is music in the sky

I am a song sung in whispers

Decipher me if you can

"I want to die!

You want to tie!

They want to buy!

I live under sky!

Why would I cry!"

Go away!

Why do you want to understand me?

You really want to know me?

Go home and look into the mirror

Watch your eyes closely

Read the message if you can

Then drink my tea

I mixed my thoughts in it

Drink it fast

Before it gets dry

The message is always gone

A little before than forever

But why is your face too familiar?

Have you come to steal my thoughts?

Steal if you can

I won’t blame you for the crime

Promise me but one thing

Don’t force me

To sleep

Or to drink your tea

I want to go away

I want to know me

Go away!

Why don’t you leave me alone?

Che' Naar

When I grew up

And I grew bigger than my mother’s lap

And too big for my father’s shoulders

In my lonely pursuits

I was adopted by an old Chinar tree

It took me in

Like its own child

I was raised by its long branches

Longer than my wishes

Fed by its countless leaves

More than the stars I could count

At night, under its elderly shade

Sometimes when I was sad

I would be there

And it will be a beautiful woman

All dressed up in autumn gold

Dancing like a stubborn child

Stripping all her clothes

One after another

Day after day

At times when I was cold

It will be dressed like an Eskimo

In his long furry snowy coat

And I will warm it with my naked palms

My secret dreams were no more

A secret

When its big leafy hand

Assured me with love and faith

I still remember the day

How it shivered with pain

When I meant to leave

In my search of dreams

I wove on its kind branches

And then when I grew older

Away from its vigil motherly gaze

Some dreams lost their meaning

Some matter more

Every now and then

I kept missing its wise company

But today I am shivering with deeper pain

Grave news reached me from home

My friend Chinar is no more

 It strangled itself with loneliness

And left me in a note

On a piece of its bark

“I am here, forever”

I keep reading it again and again

With tears falling like winter dewdrops

As if to reaffirm my belief in its last note

Beyond the reality of the sad truth

Its unmarked grave is marked

With few fading circles now

Like the orbiting planets

Of our universe

Marking each year we lived together

A ring of my faith

Is cast every morning now

When I circle it over and over again

To find my last raiment

Of hope

I wait in circles

For it to take me in again

Once more

Once more

Forever

Apna Aur Paraya

Jiss Shaher mai "Maa" Nahi

Wo Shaher Kyon Apna Ho!!!

Jiss Ghar Mai "Maa" Nahi

Usmai Kyon Baseera Ho!!!

My Migraine

Like my migraine

Your love aches me

To the center of my being

And then I hide

In the dark forest of your memories

Running away from every beam of your presence

That follows me like a firefly in my head

I put on my dark black glasses of my dreams

Believing your brightness won’t reach me

But you prick into my dreams too

And then

Like my migraine

Your love keeps aching me

Till the painful center of your memories

Becomes the center of my universe

Kiss Me My Love

Kiss me my love

Again and again

And never stop

Till angels are confused

And they lose the count

Hug me so tightly

Till all the air between us

Stand breathless, envious

Of our closeness

Hold me like you hold yourself

On the swing of your dreams

I will hold you like wind holds gently

The falling leaf

From top of the autumn tree

To the cradle of the ground

Stroke me with you nimble finger-toes

And tame the fire within me

I will caress you with my eyes

Like the brush work of the painter

Love me till I draw a rainbow on your lips

Love me till you leave a flower on my chest

I Stand Like Narcissus

I stand like Narcissus

At the edge of your eyes

I look into your eyes

And fall in love with myself

But when you see me

You choke me out of your eyes

Like a nightmare

A tear falls from your eye

A dream is lost

At the edge of your eyes

I am lost

I stand like Narcissus

But without a face to love

Or a reflection to be obsessed with now

Harvest of Our Love

I sleep under the streetlamp

Of your memories

In the dark nights of my life

I look for the moon of your face

Search the brightest constellation

For your wrist

Steal the fine wool of passing wind

To weave a shawl for you

On the loom of my heartbeat

I catch fireflies with my lips

Kiss them on your forehead

Undo the stars from heaven

Sow them in your palms

And then in the May of our love

I harvest the crops of our dreams

And then when I come back tired

I sleep under the streetlamp

Of you memories

In the dark nights of my life

Wrap myself with warm blanket

Of your letters

And praise God

For the harvest of this season