False Pretext

It’s only under false pretext

That I behave selfishly

I can never though

Love myself

More than I love you

Silence consumes me

Like termites eat dry wood

Darkness fights me

Like an untamed bull

I open my eyes wider

To see you in the dark

I sense your uncanny presence every night

In my empty room

I ask myself

Is this how madness casts its shadow?

The fangs of sadness are upon me

I try distracting myself

I think of full moon

Watching me like an insomniac eye

The curve of the sky sharpens my vision

I see beyond the tomb of my death

I rinse a dream off my eyes

Pour it in a moon-reflecting lake

It brightens the whole valley

I don’t remember clearly

If I saw you last night or dreamt about you

Dreams are the soul of light

You could steal my soul right then

If only love could be mastered

But it’s not a skill or a magic trick

It’s light on a dark road

Hope is the only source of peace in love

I have no peace

Thus it’s only under false pretext

That I am hopeful

The darkness of your indifference

Never leaves me